Flying High

Yes...we met online.....D is a married lawyer...he lives in Mississippii...and I live in California. My husband and I had just had a huge fight (one of many). We had just acquired a modem for our computer. And I chose AOL for our isp.

One day I was sending my Grandma an e-mail...when a pilot...like myself...IM'ed me. He said he noticed that I liked to fly...and he likes to talk to people about flyin. We ended up talking all night....He even took me on something he called a "Cyber Date". ( yeah..I know you must be thinking "he's good".) We went to Wyoming. His words touched me like no other.

A few months later...we met. He flew his airplane from Mississippii to California. He had never seen my face before....only my heart. I picked him up in the lobby of the hotel he stayed at....he got into my car....and said "well....you're beautiful." I did'nt know what to say.....so i drove. I wanted to show him MY town...San Diego. He had been to LA before...but never this far down south. I took him to the glider port in La Jolla.....then we went to lunch to a restaurant I called "Fluffy Food". the weather was perfect....and so was the conversation. He regaled me with interesting stories about the cases he had in the small town he lived in. He is also a Judge in this tiny town...and has a lot of funny stories to tell about that too! I had the forethought to bring a photo album of my past with me. I figured I may never see him again. That night he learned a lot about me in a short time. He fell for me.....hard. We parted ways then...and communicated online. He said he wanted to see me again...and invited me to fly out and meet him anyhwere in the US. I chose Florida....we met in Orlando just two days after my 29th birthday. I gave myself to him that night. We have never gone a day since then without contact of some kind. He writes me every day.....He is more diligent than any boyfriend I ever had. I have no doubts that he really loves me. The trouble is...he has 3 daughters..that he is very close to. Tonite...i wrote him a letter....and told him I can't do it anymore.

We have been seeing eachother for almost a year now. He came out to California just last week....he could have taken me to a lot of fun and fancy places here that my husband and I cant afford. I chose to stay alone with him...in a room....just the two of us.

He is sleeping now...and has not read my good bye letter. I think this may have been the hardest thing I have ever done. I told him to love his wife...and stay with her. They have been married over 20 years...and she must be at least a friend to him. For his kids sake...and well being...I encouraged him to stay with her.....if he loves her...or leave her if he doesn't. If he leaves...it has to be for himself..and not for someone else...especially another woman. I cried and cried as I typed he letter to him...but I know it is the right thing to do for now. Who knows? He may one day...on a business trip...peek behind the door of a 737...and see me there..taking him to where he needs to go...safe and sound, carrying him...close to my heart.