Dancer

Well my story starts out pretty slow I met my married man through some friends. I was new in town and he was real nice to me. I hit on him one friday night at the bar and we went to a after hours party with our mutual friends. I guess I never even cared if he was married you could say I was thinking with anything but my head. His response to me hitting on him was "see this ring on my finger it stands for something" Wow this made me want him even more I thought what a great guy that would be to have someone who didn't cheat no matter how much he was tempted outstanding.

Any way he left and we didn't talk much at all for a few months I would see him down at our local bar and he would say hi but that was it. Then one night we went to the local bar and he was playing pool which he is one of the best in our state at. And I said how about some lessons he said sure and we just played for hours and drank booze like fishes. Well soon it was closing time and he asked me if I needed a ride home I said yes but we never even went in that direction we went to a park and I blew him and really not to sound creud or anything but this is how it started . At first it was every other weekend and then it was everyweekend and it eventually turned into a whenever we could kind of thing and then after 6 months he said I should go out with someone else because he wanted to work on repairing his marriage,, So I did that very thing I started to date another guy and for one year I stayed completely away from the bar that we met at the tournaments we played in together and the friends we jointly had but not one day ever passed when I didn't think of him and want him to hold me. Then on the fourth of july last year I got dumpped (reason being because he said I was in love with someone else and he couldn't break through that barrier) How he knew that I don't know but he could not have been more right. So a week later i found myself back in the arms of the person I love andit was as if we never even called it quits. Only one thing differed from before for the last year there has not been any three day stretchs where we have not been together the longgest we ever make it is two days and that is always hard everynight he comes to my house and stays until about 2:00 and then leaves and goes home to his perfect wife and perfect daughters and his perfect house. I always wonder how perfect all that would be if they all knew about me? He takes me away every other weekend and we have great times laughs, smiles,sex and it seems like he is mine but he is not and that is what I am having problems with! Here it is the 4th of July9 and I am no closer to having him than I was 2 years ago. Now he says he as of today he don't know when he will get a divorce he just bought his wife a brand new home and they just last month bought me a brand new car. This is not in my perception the work of anyone planning on getting a divorce. Now last night he says he is tired of letting me down and thinks we should end it until he decides what is going to happen in his life and either does get a divorce or doesn't. He is right I should make him choose why should he have both? If only i had the will power to just say no because as tough as I sound the secound I see him I fall apart and that it it. I am right where I started Head over heals in love! The end of the beginning!